This was me in high school. My parents divorced and I lost contact with my dad at 12. I kind of think my mom threw away the letter he sent, but I don't know. So I would get sad some days and still tried to be a student, keep my grades up, and fake it like nothing was wrong.

On a good note, I found my dad 23 years later when I sent random letters to addresses I found online hoping he would respond and he did.